I killed them

I killed them

I killed them, but they would not die.

Their resilience to all, heartbreaking.

Nature’s best, homeopathy,

Laser beams pin pointed,

Chemical reactions not revolutionary enough.

Prayers, chants, mantras.

Positive, pragmatic thoughts,

All in vain.

Beaten back beyond the border,

Once, twice,

But three times no.

The fight harder than the disease,

My body’s system sending signals,

My brain unable to comprehend the direction,

The pain, the sickness, the loss.

The illness I can fight,

I have fought and won before.

The loss of myself is harder.

The hard battle is for myself.